NEVER THINK YOU HAVE LET GOD DOWN.
Friends
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The greatest expression of God's love is his forgiveness. Don't let anyone talk you out of the power of the blood of Jesus. Don't let condemning preachers or holier than thou Christians convince you that God is angry or disappointed in you. You haven't let God down. You weren't holding him up :-)

We have received a COMPLETE forgiveness. It's not partial or halfway or half done. When Jesus said it was finished, it was FINISHED!!!
When we believe that we are truly forgiven of all sin, we experience the reality of this amazing love. The enemy is always trying to bring in fear and condemnation. But the enemy as we know is a liar. Jesus was punished and rejected on the cross so we don't have to be.

2 Corinthians 5:21
For he hath made him to be sin for us, who knew no sin; that we might be made the righteousness of God in him.

Then when we realize and take into account what it cost to give us this eternal forgiveness.
That's when our hearts are flooded with thanksgiving and gratitude. Jesus has provided a complete forgiveness. An ETERNAL work has been done in us. We are now the children of God and our father will never leave us... We are his...
Enjoy the security and confidence the blood of Jesus brings to you. Rest easy... you are forgiven and you my friend, are loved.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4uShB47hvW8&t=88s